I had so many grandiose ideas of the type of mom I was going to be. I was going to save my child thousands of dollars on therapy because I was going to do everything right. I was going to say the right things. I was going to make the right decisions. I was going … Continue reading I Will Never Be the Perfect Mom
It has been exactly one week today since she died in my arms. She was only three years old. She was healthy and her death came out of nowhere. I still feel lost. It is difficult to believe that it has been an entire week since so many "last" moments. The last time we were … Continue reading The Day We Lost Lucy
It was over three years ago when I fell in love with him. I do not fall in love easily. He became my best friend. My heart became open to him in a way I did not realize was still possible. Then, six months later, he confessed to me that he was married. I told … Continue reading I Am the Other Woman
It has been thirty days today. Thirty long, incredible, insightful days. My life was no longer working and I had lost myself. Gone was the girl who had dreams and hopes and aspirations. She had been replaced by someone who was so afraid of living that she had done everything possible to prevent herself from … Continue reading 30 Days Ago I Changed My Life
Tonight I was watching the movie Trainwreck for the umpteenth time and one of the opening scenes suddenly brought a past memory to the forefront of my mind. As Amy Schumer is waddling down a crooked, broken sidewalk in high heels, I thought, "Damn. The walk of shame. That would be mortifying." Then, my self-righteous … Continue reading The One with the Trainwreck, Boy Band, and One Night Stand
Once again, I had a dream about you last night. It's really frustrating that I am being reminded of you all these years later. I believe I understand why, though. You are not my person and I am not your person. I never dream of being your happily ever after, nor you mine. These dreams … Continue reading When You Come to Me in Dreams
I was having a conversation recently with my best friend. He was sharing a story with me from his high school days. As I listened and witnessed the fondness he obviously held for that particular time in his life, I realized that is not an experience I can relate to. For me, high school consisted … Continue reading To the Friends I Left Behind But Carry Close
Their onscreen love story set the stage for many women who, like me, grew up immersed in the intriguing fictional world Han Solo and Princess Leia created. When the lovely and talented Carrie Fisher broke her silence after forty years to confess that their amazing chemistry carried over off-screen as well, it seemed only natural. … Continue reading Will Harrison Ford Honor Carrie Fisher’s Dying Wish?
I know a lot of people who need to be in a relationship. It is a part of their identity. They do not know how to be alone. I am the complete opposite.
My heart feels heavy. There is so much anger and fear coursing through the air right now. It all just feels really heavy. I have always been an empath by nature. I deeply feel what those around me are feeling. I am basically the human equivalent of an emotional sponge. Both a blessing and a … Continue reading Society, You’re a Crazy Breed